REVIEW: When I Break ~ Kendall Ryan @KendallRyan1


This book is intended for a mature reading audience and contains adult language and themes. Contains a stubborn alpha male with addiction issues and loads of sexual tension between two damaged characters. Read at your own risk.

Knox Bauer’s life has unraveled to the point of no return. Fighting to fill the emptiness inside himself, he seeks solace in unfamiliar beds with unfamiliar women. As guardian to his three younger brothers, he can’t seem to do a thing right. But this can’t go on…they look up to him in every way and all he’s done lately is prove how messed up he really is. Needing a change, he attends a local Sex Addicts Anonymous meeting, where he finds himself tempted by the alluring instructor, McKenna.

Twenty-one year old McKenna is trying to make amends. After losing her parents in a horrific accident, she knows if she can just be good enough, maybe she can forgive herself for what happened. With her newly acquired degree in counseling, she begins leading a sex addicts group where she meets the troubled Knox and her life takes on complications she never bargained for. She doesn’t have time for a bad boy who only wants to take her to bed, even if her body disagrees. The fixer in her wants to help, but trusting Knox’s true motivations might take more courage than she has.

When I Break is book 1 in a new series by New York Times & USA Today bestselling author Kendall Ryan. When I Surrender, book 2, will be available April 7, 2014. Please note this is not a standalone, as the story continues in book 2.




Knox Bauer is on a self destructive path. Sex is his drug of choice. Using women to numb his pain has become something he relays on to get through each day. But when he comes face to face with the law, he is force to being to face his troubles head on, or risk losing his brothers.

McKenna is determined to save the world. After losing her parents, she is left without a family. Struggling to make amends, she devotes all her life to serving and helping people heal, in the holds that it will help fill the empty and lonely hole in her heart.

When Knox walks into her Sex Addicts Anonymous meeting, she is immediately drawn to him. As McKenna begins to get to know Knox as a person, and not a sex addict, her feelings for him begin to grow into something more. As McKenna struggles to balance her need to help Knox heal and her growing feelings, doubt about if she is strong enough to fall for a recovering addict being to plague her.

Knox knows from the start that McKenna is dangerous for him. Unsure of what draws him to her, he is determined to learn more about her. As they get to know each other, Knox is sure of two things, he wants McKenna and he knows she is too good for him. As his feelings grow for McKenna, he fears that he will never be strong enough to face his past head on and be strong enough to be the man he feels McKenna deserves.

The depth that Kendall is able to weave into her characters is amazing and hooks you immediately. While on the surface each of these characters are easy to form judgment on, but as you dive deeper into their story you come to find that first impressions can be deceiving, especially for these two characters. When I Break is the beautiful first installment of two very broken people finding each other, and learning that facing their dark pasts may be easier together.

Let me end by saying this, this book does end on a bit of a cliffhanger, and as I finished this book, I found myself desperately swiping at my Kindle to make sure that I did not miss more at the end and cursing Mrs. Ryan because sadly I was not missing anything. Fear not, though dear readers, if you are not a fan of a cliffhanger, the next installment in this three book series will be out on April 7, so you will not have long to wait. (And thank you Kendall for releasing the second book very close to the first one!)






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